Dave Crashed Into the Cuckoo’s Nest, Part II
A Week Fighting to Get Out of the Mad House: An Epic Poem in 7 Installments
[Typed the mornings of September 20-21, 2022 from notes written in crayon the previous week while on an involuntary hold at the psych ward at Pacific Grove Hospital in Riverside, California after a ketamine infusion therapy to treat the PTSD went bad, leaving the Poet more suicidal and self-hating than before it began, prompting the doctor to insist on a “5150” 72-hour hold.]
Check out part I here:
Wednesday 6:41 AM I need to get out of here. Trying for today. Had a hard time sleeping last night. They let me sleep in the TV room since my roommate was snoring like a chainsaw. The isolation room had a bright light so it wasn’t usable.
6:52 AM I have the remote and have chosen the Food Channel, Didn’t feel like watching the Queen’s funeral procession 7:08 AM I am hyper-aroused. It is so loud here and I am not getting my meds. 8:07 AM Just overheard a woman refuse to fill out paperwork or identify herself. She threatened the nurse with losing her job and talked about “sovereign” something or other. This crayon just broke again
8:24 AM Eddie who I played chess with is leaving troday.
8:31 AM New episode of “Storage Wars” set in Indio, CA started. Going to watch. Allowed outside now. Saw a bad psychiatrist over the phone for five minutes and he threatened to keep me here longer than 72 hours. 3:44 PM Panicking now. They are saying I don’t have insurance coverage anymore. Called and it was cancelled on the 16th of August. They say I can apply for charity. Not sure of the time. I have now been transferred to a more quiet wing. Fewer people. Not sure as many involuntarily-held people. So less rowdy 8:16 PM They got the TV working. We can change channels now.
8:31 PM Found a documentary on ancient giants in Sardinia… on the SciFi channel, of course. 9:53 PM The lady in this TV room wanted to watch TBN, a televangelist network. Charlie Kirk interviewing John MacArthur. Charlatans! Had a good session with Sally on the phone. Let her know of my hurt at parents’ unwillingness To help get me out of here.
10:02 PM Watching Queen news on CNN: “Pageantry Is Paganism” - Realization on Royal idolatry
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The next day’s Installment will be published tomorrow. Listen to Dave talk about his experience here in Wednesday’s podcast: